Dream of the run-away truck
The structure of my dreams is changing.
Last night I dreamt that I was attending a course at a mall when a small white�truck parked in the parking lot. The one driver was unpacking while the other went to buy some cigarettes. While both were away the truck started to move, running downhill. I sprinted after it and got inside to stop the truck from running away. I drove it back to its original parking place and then took the key that was still in the ignition. The driver of the vehicle came back and wanted the key but I refused to give it to him. I told him that I will only give the keys to the boss of the truck ...so that I can tell him how irresponsible they were in leaving the vehicle without the handbrake being on. Although he pleaded to get back the keys I did not give the keys back and went back to attend my course.
Experiment of present moment learning
I am experimenting to take Gurdjieff's concept of self remembering a step further based on something I read from the book called Total Freedom by Krisnamurti. Self-observation and self-remembering is still based on past experience and still based on how the mind sees the owner. Krisnamurti seems to place the challenge for us to enter into a present moment space not just with a self remembering approach but also with an approach of continual learning. Observing our environment and ourselves from a totally undefined position...that is to see the whole as if it is for the first time. In this approach an experience is created that everything is new and fresh...The traces of the past moves out of focus and the present moment moves more sharply in focus.
I experimented the last two days with this approach of looking at my world without any past filters. My observation was that firstly the world seemed more fresh ad exiting...I became much more aware of the quality of the moment in terms of the opportunity to learn. I realised how much of my experience is filtered up by a sense of familiarity. Our minds think that it has seen something before and totally pushes it to the subconscious for storage and the conscious mind does not even get a sniff of it. I was also amazed to discover how much of me is either living in the past or in the future even though I have been practicing present moment awareness for some time.
This exercise asks for a total clearing of the mind so that the experience can enter directly into the conscious mind without being filtered into the subconscious mind. I do believe that the traces of the past and the possibilities of the future needs to be drawn into the moment experience but realise now that this is one approach. The other is to push them out totally. Thus again a dyad emerges - I will call the one approach "Integrative present moment" where past and future converge into the present moment and the other "Expansive present moment" where the past and the future is removed from the present moment experience.� These two modes of present moment experience are both needed, yet can not be lived simultaneously. I need to find a frequency of moving between these two states as I live life.
The structure of my dreams is changing.
Last night I dreamt that I was attending a course at a mall when a small white�truck parked in the parking lot. The one driver was unpacking while the other went to buy some cigarettes. While both were away the truck started to move, running downhill. I sprinted after it and got inside to stop the truck from running away. I drove it back to its original parking place and then took the key that was still in the ignition. The driver of the vehicle came back and wanted the key but I refused to give it to him. I told him that I will only give the keys to the boss of the truck ...so that I can tell him how irresponsible they were in leaving the vehicle without the handbrake being on. Although he pleaded to get back the keys I did not give the keys back and went back to attend my course.
Experiment of present moment learning
I am experimenting to take Gurdjieff's concept of self remembering a step further based on something I read from the book called Total Freedom by Krisnamurti. Self-observation and self-remembering is still based on past experience and still based on how the mind sees the owner. Krisnamurti seems to place the challenge for us to enter into a present moment space not just with a self remembering approach but also with an approach of continual learning. Observing our environment and ourselves from a totally undefined position...that is to see the whole as if it is for the first time. In this approach an experience is created that everything is new and fresh...The traces of the past moves out of focus and the present moment moves more sharply in focus.
I experimented the last two days with this approach of looking at my world without any past filters. My observation was that firstly the world seemed more fresh ad exiting...I became much more aware of the quality of the moment in terms of the opportunity to learn. I realised how much of my experience is filtered up by a sense of familiarity. Our minds think that it has seen something before and totally pushes it to the subconscious for storage and the conscious mind does not even get a sniff of it. I was also amazed to discover how much of me is either living in the past or in the future even though I have been practicing present moment awareness for some time.
This exercise asks for a total clearing of the mind so that the experience can enter directly into the conscious mind without being filtered into the subconscious mind. I do believe that the traces of the past and the possibilities of the future needs to be drawn into the moment experience but realise now that this is one approach. The other is to push them out totally. Thus again a dyad emerges - I will call the one approach "Integrative present moment" where past and future converge into the present moment and the other "Expansive present moment" where the past and the future is removed from the present moment experience.� These two modes of present moment experience are both needed, yet can not be lived simultaneously. I need to find a frequency of moving between these two states as I live life.
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